Aimless life

Have been thinking of where my life is heading....and it turns out....nowhere...
Guess this is what they call a mid-life crisis....Feels like a rudder-less boat set adrift in this ocean that is life....heading nowhere....but going with the waves...
In hindi...you would say....zindagi jhaat banke reh gayi hai.... which means.... my life is f*&^%$ up....
I feel so worthless in life... like my life uptil now has been just a waste...except for a few small exceptions...
What is it that makes a person successful...and what is success....Is success a measurable quantity? probably not...would you call a person who is a millionaire, a successful person? If so, what would you call a billionaire?....a super successful person?
i guess, success is different for different people...for some ... it would be to earn lots of money...for some...it would mean to achieve fame, doesnt necessarily have to go with money... and for some, it would probably be to be loved...
Success...hmm...do i seek success? i dont know...
i go to office every day, but dont feel like working at all...dont know what it is, but my work just does not motivate me to work at all...
i only hope i get a direction in life pretty soon....else in another 30 years...i would still be writing the same shit that i am writing now...and i sure dont want to see me doing that...
i guess enough ramblngs for today....